"School"

Well I was forced to face reality this last week. Macy started "school" on Monday March 21.

It was by far the worst day ever! Yes it was hard when I went back to work 4 weeks ago but she was still at home and was either with my mom (nana), or Jeff's mom (JuJu) or her daddy. So it was more of me just transitioning back into work mode. But last Monday was by far the worst! It is just not normal to carry your baby for 9 months and then spend some many weeks at home just you and them. And then be expected to drop them off with some one you really don't know. We decided not to place her in a daycare center right now as we were a little more comfortable with a home sitter. We met with a few ladies and choose for her to stay with Ms. Naomi..or as Macy will know her Ms. Mimi. She came highly recommended and actually ended up being the aunt of one of the nurses I work with.

We got to Ms. Mimi's at 7:15 and went through Macy's whole schedule, I went over all her little quirks... aka pickyness. =) Spent about 15 minutes watching her with Macy. Then it was time for me to leave. I had already cried all morning so I thought for sure I had already got it all out. Well I was wrong. I picked Macy up and lost it again. I kissed my girl, gave her a hug and told her I hoped she had a good day and handed her to the Ms. Mimi. Wiped my tears and left.
I walked out the front door and felt like I could not let go of the door knob. To close the door and walk away from her, get in my car and know that I was not going to be back for 8 hours... Was horrible.

I know that every mother goes through these same emotions, and I know that over time it will get easier. But that day at that time I honestly didn't care what everyone else has/had to go through, or that over time it would get better. I was leaving MY BABY for the 1st time with someone I have barely met and trusting her with my most prized possession. At the end of the day I could not wait to get my girl. According to Ms.Mimi everyone had a pretty good day. And for the 1st day that is all that I had hope for. But I sure am glad that day is BEHIND me.

1st day of school


2nd day of school


3rd day of school


If you are wondering why Macy only has 3 days of pictures, it is because right now I am only working 2 1/2 days a week. However that will change over the next month or so. =(