Well I was forced to face reality this last week. Macy started "school" on Monday March 21.
We got to Ms. Mimi's at 7:15 and went through Macy's whole schedule, I went over all her little quirks... aka pickyness. =) Spent about 15 minutes watching her with Macy. Then it was time for me to leave. I had already cried all morning so I thought for sure I had already got it all out. Well I was wrong. I picked Macy up and lost it again. I kissed my girl, gave her a hug and told her I hoped she had a good day and handed her to the Ms. Mimi. Wiped my tears and left.
I walked out the front door and felt like I could not let go of the door knob. To close the door and walk away from her, get in my car and know that I was not going to be back for 8 hours... Was horrible.
I know that every mother goes through these same emotions, and I know that over time it will get easier. But that day at that time I honestly didn't care what everyone else has/had to go through, or that over time it would get better. I was leaving MY BABY for the 1st time with someone I have barely met and trusting her with my most prized possession. At the end of the day I could not wait to get my girl. According to Ms.Mimi everyone had a pretty good day. And for the 1st day that is all that I had hope for. But I sure am glad that day is BEHIND me.
1st day of school
2nd day of school
3rd day of school
If you are wondering why Macy only has 3 days of pictures, it is because right now I am only working 2 1/2 days a week. However that will change over the next month or so. =(